Seman That Smells Like Fish

It's time for Homecoming 2010 zident

For several days I say let me ab-so-lu-tion that I'm talking about my exciting life in upper part of the dynamic Parisian life.

Good as ever finished by 19:30 (I have a thought for my fellow commuters every evening at 19:30 sigh "and shit, I'll still go and I should 21h not my kid." Sadness.) I 'm too tired to write you anything super interesting, except that I'm tired.

And the fact is that I do not know what to say because I do not really know what I think.

There's a part of me is really happy to finally have responsibilities, to learn every day a little more of this new profession, to have a really great boss (he must be passed by the French Alliance Sydney to take the measure of what it is!) to help small babes looking for a job to find one, to complete projects, work in teams.

And then there 's another part of me that's like a big big big doubt. Is said thousand times a day "But what am I doing here?" The butterflies in my stomach.

I told you talked a little side Commercial Super clean this job. The next, I'll get the business, Toper contracts, make conf calls with Dir Com. You see a little? The commercial objective side ---> ----> contracts premiums at the end of the month, yay champagne and mojitos. Ben

not miss it eh, I think I'm not made for that too. Just talk to me about it, just I do not care really.

I do not feel in my place, I feel like a farce.

And the little super weird stuff of life: I now have an assistant.

And I admit, I envy.

I want to 18h when she takes her jacket and breaks. I envy when I see it in his quiet corner so I conf call with my Dir Com sucks too. I feel like when my boss gives me my Weekly Point and I have not reached my goals and it must be talked about. In fact

responsibilities, I'm drunk. That sucks, shameful, cowardly and pathetic, but true.

I can not say I was not warned. This job is the line near what I described in maintenance. And now I'm a picky eater at the first hurdle ...

must say I was gently put into prospecting for 3 consecutive weeks to test my motivation and I will start to recruit strictly speaking Monday. So if it is, I'm having as a divine illumination and kiffer my race.

I have not said my last word, I give myself until the end of the year to see. Hope!

Good end of weekend my balls!